So have you ever felt worth nothing? Now this rant will be different from my others, because I never though I would have to rant about this.

 

 

So My life has been upside down lately. Musical ended and I have a dance and voice recital coming up. So the last thing I need are guy, friend, and work troubles. 

 

Lets start with the guy

 

I doubt I'll ever find my Gilbert Blythe (aka Mr. Right) and chances are I'll have to settle for a Roy Gardner (aka Mr. Second Best) And this kills a hopeless romantic like myself... I want the perfect love (who doesn't?) But looking beyond that I want what is not attainable. I want perfection. Brown eyes brown hair sense of humour, poetic, smart, sweet, understanding. And I came close with Chase, but he has a girlfriend... and I'm not that girl...

 

Lets move onto the friend

 

Diana. I love her but at times I feel like the smallest thing in the world. She's going back to her home town this summer and she's already leaving me behind though school isn't over. I know I'm not her best friend (and we aren't bosom friends. that was over a long time ago.) But I want so badly to be what she wants. But this isn't her home town. The country isn't her place. And that makes me feel like nothing. I have never had many best friends, and to feel second best time and time again doesn't bode well with me. 

 

Lets move on to work

 

I'm working at the snack bar at the pool this summer. No Diana, no anyone (as my summers usually are, lonely and sad) Just me sitting in a little hut with all the books I can read. Just escaping into more non-existent worlds and more unreal guys. (tis the life of a hopeless romantic)  -___-  well I'm done depressing you guys for now... bye

 

 

~Cora

So it's Wednesday....



Hey you guys tis Cora and it is Wednesday! I am sick! And my show opens tomorrow! NO!


But instead of ranting about that (which believe me I could, I haven't talked all day to preserve my voice) But I'm going to talk about something else...something.... interesting



Oblivious boys, and Oblivious girls (in love)*And NO I'm not just writing this because my last blog got more views then I will ever hope to get in my life...so yea*

Seriously this needs to be addressed. Lets start shall we?


Oblivious boys:

I love guys. Friends, and even something more than that. But there are times when guys can be SO oblivious! I'm going to start on the friendship level and then move my way up.


So guys that are your friends, we all have them. All of mine just so happen to be gay, bi or just kind of weird... But don't get me wrong there the nicest guys I've ever met yet sometimes they don't get it. When I'm sad I want a hug, when I'm cold I want there hoodie but for some unknown reason they don't get that. And if I ask about my hair or makeup they say they don't know "It looks nice... I guess..." =__= Now I knew you're not a girl but I don't have many friends that are girls so PLEASE help me out here darling...

Now god forbid you start liking them. Because here's what happens (First hand experience yo)

So you like this guy and he's a really good friend of yours and stuff. But he is completely unaware of ANY attempt to be noticed. For instance you just so happened to go out and buy a REALLY cute dress (sorry about all the capitalization... I must release the fury....) and this dress has flowers on it and you look adorable in it and you get to school and.... NOTHING! And one of the things you though of while buying said dress was "hmm I wonder if (insert crush's name here) will like this dress on me..." And you get no response. Now it might just happen that in passing you hear from a friend that he said your outfit was cute which may or may not have made your day... but still...

And then there is the internet. about 99% of your status updates/ tweets are about HIM and you want him to notice you and you wrote something REALLY deep like "In the spring a young mans fancy lightly turns to thoughts of love ~Tennyson" and you don't know if he read it. Then you begin to wonder, even if he did would he say anything? Was he creeped out by that? Are Tennyson quotes too intense at this stage in our relationship? And you drive your self CRAZY over it...

I guess it all ties in with wondering if guys talk about girls the way girls talk about guys...


And no men I haven't forgotten about you! Girls are just about as oblivious as you can be sometimes. I just so happen to be an oblivious girl ^__^

So I'll break this into 3 parts, random strangers, friends, crushes.


Random strangers:

So you're just chillin in the mall with your friends and this girl walks by and MAN is she pretty. And she's chatting away with her friend and as she passes you look at her and try to suppress your smile hoping she'll see it, but she doesn't she walks right the frig by and didn't even acknowledge. Now maybe her friend whispers to her that a guy was staring at her and she turns around blushing like crazy and giggling and smiling but you wanted more than that. Sorry guys, but it happens.


Friends:

You have friends that are girls. And they range from pretty to funny to rather unfortunate in appearance and in personality but you have em. Sometimes girls can be oblivious to your feelings because there too caught up in there own. They need attention and sometimes are oblivious to the fact that you're not the ONLY guy in the world.


Crushes:

You spent HOURS creeping on her face book finding out everything you could about her and you try to say the right things to her and she doesn't even respond. You are doing everything to get her to like you and it isn't working! Those lingering glances that grin that comes across your face, yea we know its there! Here is some advice... TELL HER THE FRIG! She is not going to make the first move. Let it out, the worst that can happen is rejection.



So yea. We have all been guilty of being oblivious before. (especially me...)


~Cora

Hey! No time long blog right? Sorry about that, been really busy with school and rehearsals and junk :p but I am back! ^__^

So I woke up the other day and there on the trees were little green leaves being coaxed out of there buds. It was magical. Simply magical. I forgot how much I loved leaves and spring and the greenness of it all! I took the flat onto the pond the other day and it was amazing! I was assaulted by some geese. But that was my fault for eating a sandwich on the flat... so yeaaa.... heh -__-

My guitar has been fixed and I've been playing it again and I have been getting better. I don't think I'll ever make it a career but it certainly is a good thing to know how to do.

This is going to sound silly, but isn't it interesting how sunlight in late afternoon is golden.... It's very beautiful...

So I finished two books by John Green recently (AMAZING) I'm reading Looking for Alaska. :D then onto Will Greyson Will Greyson ^__^

I'm taking a break on "love" for the time. Don't ask specifics. All I will say is I had a boyfriend recently but I ended it for a multitude of reasons and I realized something with all of that (like I said I wont go into specifics) I have decided that I need to live life for me and not for everyone else. I don't know. It all happened so fast. But I do know that I'm not who I used to be...

ANYWHOODLE

^__^ I love you guys! Bye!

~Cora